Around the time of the Oscars I realized that I actually spend a considerable amount of time acting instead of living my life. I constantly try to meet expectations and to be what, I think, is expected of me in my role as a senior manager aspiring to the executive level.
However, if I am not acting as my real self, I feel like a fake and like I am just being an actor in a role. I feel like I am pretending to be something or somebody, which has nothing to do with me. If I am not aware of who I really am, I am apart of myself and I am not really alive. Â In turn, if I keep my awareness about my real self, I feel good about myself, I feel at home and at peace with being me. This is when I am thoughtful and make the better decisions.
After reading chapter 7 of ‘Harmony Meditationâ€
My teacher pointed out that I tend to aiming too low. I can see now how I am limiting myself and others through this behavior. To aim higher, I no longer need to act, I can be the real me in any role – so it is no longer a role.
These many ‘mesâ€